I’m sorry for your loss. One of the hardest things that comes with reaching a certain age is the uncertainty of life. None of us live forever, so it’s best to live life to the fullest in the way that suits you best while you can. Eventually you’ll be past your grief and be able to look back on the good times you spent with her with fondness.
I now how you feel P, every year I get older my list of Friends gets shorter. Sorry about your friend.
I’m not “offended” by your questioning of her prayers, but do keep in mind that sometimes death actually *can* be a mercy. If things continue to go off the “cliffs of insanity” as fast and hard as it looks like they’re trying, at least she will not suffer during the days to come.
May be only a small comfort, perhaps, but some comfort is better than none.
May God look over your friend.
Being in your age group I can understand why she didn’t let everyone know. Why bother her dear friends with something they could not control? It really may be that simple.
Maybe your friend did pray to her God to ease her pain. Only those two know.
A friendly suggestion - remember the good times. From your brief description of her, I would suspect that is what she would want you and your wife to do. Don’t dwell on what might have been. Smile. She most certainly is.
So sorry ... thoughts and prayers…
Sorry to hear about your friend - and in the midst of the holidays - always hardest on the family for the coming years. Thoughts and prayers for comfort.